Grace in Love

ok im going to start this out having you think about the person that you love more than anyone else in this world! somebody that you would absolutely never want to let down. now picture yourself doing something that breaks their heart. im sure you know of times when you have let someone down that you love cause i certainly have and it is one of the most painful feelings cause you cant take it back. knowing that you have crushed that person for doing something that you could have chosen not to do. well i have just been thinking about Christ in that way. i do things allllll the time that break His heart and its funny cause people will say sarcastic things like, "oh come on just do it, jesus is still gonna love you." well, yeah He will, and thats exactly why i dont want to do something that will hurt Him! Him not loving me is the last thing im worried about. the fact that He KEEPS loving me when i do things to cause Him pain is miraculous! i think its something that a lot of people cant grasp because of people in their lives that only love conditionally. i get chill bumps sometimes when i really think about how much the Lord loves me and i have such a tainted veiw of what that really is. i mean because of the fall i dont really know what LOVE is. think about it this way. we know a lot about the sun, we see it, we feel warmth from it, we feel the effects of it, but think about actually being on the sun! you just cant even imagine the heat that you would feel. it would be an all consuming fire that would overcome you! for me that is such a cool way to think about God as the source of love. when we have the chance to be in that love one day it is going to be all consuming and it will overcome us. it makes me want to do everything i can to get closer and closer to understanding His love and experiencing it and if i continue to do things that are hurting Him its only going to hinder me getting to where i want to get with my Savior. i hope and pray that we can choose to live lives that bring him everlasting glory and because of it experience a love that we cant even imagine right now. one that will continue to surprise us :)