REdiscovering Christ!

its so interesting how when a new year comes around people feel like anything is possible. it feels like the past is really behind me and i can be whoever i choose to be this year. the decisions that i made last year have no tie to me anymore and it feels real because today is a new year. so ive never really been one to make new years resolutions because if you really wanted to do something, you would just do it. you wouldnt need the new year to come to do it. and im sure that if anyone has stuck to a new years resolution its been because something deeper, than just the new year, is behind it driving it. so id like to think that what i want right now is deeper than this freeing feeling of 2010. maybe the fact that im voicing this will hold me accountable to doing it :)

so, last night i was laying in bed wondering if i should try to make a resolution for myself this year and so i looked back on this past year and looked at all the things that i did and i learned and i wish that i had done. and i came to the conclusion that with my relationship with the Lord there have been some spots where i dont think ive understood how wonderful He really is. i mean i have knowledge of who God is in my head but transferring that truth to my heart is hard sometimes. so this year when i have made mistakes i have really beat myself up about them and have totally forgotten that fact that the only opinion that matters is Christs. and He has made it clear in Scripture that His blood has covered my life, His grace is stronger than my faults, and his mercy is bigger than my stupidest mistakes. all i have to do is accept that and move on! its so unnecessary to dwell on the things that ive done "wrong" because what good does that do?? i cant go back and change the past so all i have is the future in my grasp and the Lord by my side so what am i going to do with that!? that is the question that i have before me now. where do i go in 2010 with the future in my grasp and the Lord by my side?

so with all that said i am no longer dwelling in the past and the ways that ive been. i have decided to REdiscover Christ! i want to read the gospels and see Christ for what He says He is and not what pastors have said and books have said. i want to go back to the raw scriptures and find Him there. i want my life to mirror His this year and im up for the challenge! so, may 2010 be a year of big love, deep relationships, restored hearts, crazy adventures, and powerful encounters with a rediscovered Living God! CANT WAIT!