i cant even express how much i love the community that i have gotten from grace midtown church :) i started going to a house church about a month ago to meet people and get plugged in better to the church that i love and it has been SUCH a blessing! i have met a ton of new people and they all love God and love people and its been so fun and refreshing to be surrounded by people that desperately want to see the Lord and be a part of what He is doing in Atlanta! i have been changed by these amazing people and have been encouraged by their hearts for God. they make me want to make the changes that i need to in my life, through obedience, to make it more like my Saviors. i was convicted the first time i went to house church because i realized how selfish i was being. i say that i love this God and then i spend my time doing things that are meaningless and a waste of time. so after that first house church, and a crappy situation the same night that reminded that God IS the only constant in my life, i decided that my life is no longer my own. i got so tired of making promises that i never kept and so i started reading scripture again. i love the Lord and i really do desire to glorify Him with my actions and i have had that mind set for a while now but i was dying inside. i had nothing filling me, i was attempting to glorify God on my own pathetic strength, not looking to His Word or His people to be an encouragement to me. i had a dream one night during this time and in it a spiritual leader in the church looked at me straight in the eyes and said "you're drowning" and i knew he was talking about my soul. i tried to blow it off as just a weird coincidence, i guess because of pride and not wanting to look weak, but eventually i figured out that that was a warning from the Lord. praise God it came because i was hurting and the joy that has come so recently is more than i can express to anyone! i want to smile so big that it hurts and i want to dance like idiot. but the reason why i want to write this blog is because i want to encourage anyone out there thats in the same place that i was. its ok. and you don't have to fix everything. just come before God with a willing humble heart ready to follow Him and He will change you! i took that step a month ago and last night was a testament to Gods faithfulness. after a rowdy time of worship at church last night i went to say hi to a few people that i have gotten so close to through house church and they just expressed the change that they have seen in me the past few weeks! i had no idea that it showed! i mean, i just wanted joy again and did what i knew would get me it and apparently it radiates!!! praise God! He shines so brightly. its nothing that i have to
try to do! he fills and overflows and i get to soak in it! i pray this joy, divine relationship, and amazing fellowship for everyone reading this and their brother! i want this for everyone and so i pray that it will be. God is faithful to our prayers when they flow with the rhythm of His heartbeat and i believe that my prayer does so AMEN, let it be!
